What’s on your Mind

No one explain why I feel sad

No one can tell me why I cry

Sometimes I do not

Other days I can not stop

My mind it rolling around in my head

When I go to sleep

I toss and turn until my legs go dead

And my face is red

So I sit up staring at the clock

Wondering could I move the hands along tick tock

The more I look at it the slower it goes by

My eyes are all watery

I don’t know why

Feeling like I can not go out the door

Isolated stranded life is such a bore

I pace up and down the floor

Where a pattern once was

I have worn it out so much you see

From walking up and down

I smoke a cigarette or two just help my nerves

My hands they shake so much

These fags are my only crutch

Wish I could knock them on the head

Smelly and stinking to touch

Some days I feel optimistic

I feel I will get strong

While other days I know I am so wrong

Not able to move myself from my bed

Lying here with thoughts

Running like an express train through my head

If it could send a message it would say

Hope your feeling better today

Not to worry or feel scared

Not to shut myself away

And go and shave my beard

I haven’t washed in days

This is who I have become

Lying in my own upset

Has my tear drops running down my face

I know I will be strong again

I have something no one can take away

My memory of when I was happy and proud

No one can take it away

So for now I will lye here and hope

As I look at this man I once knew

And hope I will meet him again

Then I can have my life back once again